Just One Kiss

In your arms, things make sense.
The baggage, the arguments, everything,
Falls away, with one touch of your hand,
One kiss, one moment where everything else disappears.

I feel tied down, I want to start living.
I don't feel like a child,
But I'm still living by someone else's rules.
The clash hurts my ears,
They fight against it, the beginning,
Of something new, something mine.
I want something of my own. Not living under your roof.
Not living for you to scorn, criticise.
You don't trust me to make my own decisions just yet.
You said you can hardly believe I'm 18 in a month.
It's because you still see me as a child.

That feeling drags me down,
If I were one for metaphors I'd chose the one with the bird,
Locked inside a cage.
But I don't like metaphors.
I feel trapped. Like I've outgrown my old clothes.
(I like similes you see)
But I tried to be an adult once and got it wrong.
I want some things, but I'm scared of failing.
Of failing you.
I know things are different, and I'm trying to act my age,
I promise you,
But sometimes,
I feel like a 13 year old girl,
Giddy, lost, afraid of rejection.
Sometimes I want the world to stop,
In those moments when it's just you and me.
Because that's when everything's okay.
That's when I'm happy, and no one apart from you can ruin it.
And I'd like to think you'd never want to ruin it,
No matter what difficulties might come with getting older.


Conflicting thoughts,
Of love, escape, facts, futures…
I want you to hold my hand through all of it,
Because you are my little piece of everything,
And in your arms words make sense,
Your skin, your heartbeat, your touch,
Your hand on my hair, reassuring, loving,
Everything.

Every
         Single
                   Thing
                            Falls
                                    Away
                                             With
                                                     Just
                                                            One
                                                                   Kiss
                                                                         <3