I hate you.

I know, and I'm sorry. It's kinda complicated, but please promise me you won't push yourself, it'll make it worse. You'll understand soon. Xx

No. Don't give me this crap. You know it just makes me pissed at you. Can't you just explain what you're on about for once?

I know, I'm sorry. And I know you're not going to forgive me for this, but please try to understand. It'll be better for everyone if I do it, it's the only way I can think of right now. Please be happy. Xxxx Love you.

I hate it when you do this. Sometimes I don't know why I bother when all I get is riddles. It's not fair.

I know. But I do this so I don't have to worry about you trying to prevent it. You'll get it all in a few days. Xxxx Love you.

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I hate you.
I'm always surprised by how much I hate you.
How you still have this power over me,
How you still know exactly how to play me.
You knew me better than anyone else,
So at least you learned something about me,
Apart from that I hate orange juice with bits in it.

I hate you.
The way that you'll gracefully come to my side,
And I'll pretend I didn't notice you looking at me earlier.
You'll smile at me in the same way you did when you were 10,
And it's like nothing's changed apart from the space between us.
Then you'll ruin it later that night,
When you text me at 2.07am.

I hate you.
You say the same things you always used to say,
You're stupid half stories that form dangerous black rainbows.
Ready to fuck with my mind over and over,
Just like you fucked with my heart.


Have I told you that I fucking hate you?

I hate that you love me.
I hate that you ruined everything.
I hate that I ever let you close to me.
I hate that you gave me nightmares.
I hate that you still like to mess with my head.
I hate the way that you look at me.
I hate that you torment me.

I hate that I fell in love with you.